i can't stand my own face

by nine of swords

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released June 13, 2014

recorded/mixed/mastered by john molfetas, the only engineer



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Track Name: watch
a body on the kitchen floor, her fingers stuffed in the sock drawer, is this what you're looking for? isn't this what you're looking for?
how many times? every time, every fucking time, every time. every fucking time.
i wish i had your razor sharp wit, maybe i could've gotten out of it. but i'm just a stupid kid i always fall for it. how do you cause the problems, yet we choose you to solve them?
every time, every fucking time.
you got blood on the wrong pair of hands.

don't advise me to not go out alone when you're the one who needs your fucking boyfriend.
Track Name: snow ii
subtle glances are all i should recall but merciless grips are burned into my brain. how do you get to be so cruel but i'm the one who feels insane? why do we recognize evil but let it go about its way?
its the last thing i want but the first thing i take.
you make me so sick i can't stand my own face.
Track Name: jerome
he wasn't really like the other boys but he never really gave a shit, the sun will rise and the sun will set and we're all doomed to the same pit.
plant trees, smoke trees, love yourself, help me.
hey you guys, pick on someone your own size. i don't like to be surprised, i don't wanna shoot a gun, i don't wanna have a son, i don't wanna have any fun.
plant trees, smoke trees, love yourself, help me.
i can't wait to avoid making eye contact with all of my friends on my way to class.
Track Name: two step
you saw me and you just knew what to do, what does that mean? you've been told you have the key but not to me, i am not your ticket to anything.
you can check your fucking book, its written in your book, if i were you i wouldn't even look.
you can tell me what you want but i owe you nothing.
Track Name: flagburner
you'll never see the end of your debt all your decisions are ones to regret kill yourself to escape but you'll be so easily replaced

what makes you think that you're so free?